Dream: Dark Howl

I was Sophie and was sitting on the floor, in front of Howl, and I had reached up and placed my hand on his leg. He smirked and shifted a little and spread his legs and I saw this round lump in his pants. I wanted to, but was afraid, so he took my hand and put it on the "lump" and helped me massage it.  He decided it wasn't enough and leaned back and kind of sideways so that he was propped up on his right elbow and brought his legs up and bent his legs so that the heals of his feet were almost touching each other.

He unfastened his pants, took my hand, and slid it down the inside of the front of his pants, all the while smirking / grinning. I blushed like crazy, but felt him up, taking note of how soft, smooth and round the lump (his balls) felt. It was rather difficult for me to maneuver my hand because, even though he'd unfasten his belt and unzipped his pants, his pants were still rather taut and I wasn't entirely facing him. I turned slightly, hoping that would help, but still couldn't massage the right side of his balls. Howl complained that I had rubbed the left side (and center) of his balls too much while ignoring the right side of his balls.

I sighed heavily and rolled my eyes and turned so that I was facing him some more and he pulled his legs together a little and I was finally able to not only massage the right side of his balls, but to also slide my hand down the crease of his right leg and to feel under his balls. I actually found his hole and felt this thick, warm liquid that was supposed to be pre-cum seeping out of his hole and made a face. It was the first time I'd ever felt pre-cum and it felt strange!

I started to pull my hand away only for Howl to sigh exasperatedly and to grab my hand and pull it out of his pants. He sat normally on the sofa, a leg on either side of my shoulders since I was now fully facing him, and instructed me to lick and kiss and his legs - through his pants. I did, but didn't, want to do it because I was afraid and felt so uncertain, but swallowed my fear and uncertainties and did as I was told. I noticed he had a slight mid-drift and was curious about what kissing / nipping his abdomen and chest might be like and kept staring at his mid-drift. After a few brief minutes of me licking / kissing / nipping his legs, Howl noticed I was staring at his mid-drift and decided he'd had enough.

He moved and grabbed my (right) arm, jerked me up off the floor, and hurled me, chest first, towards the back of the sofa. I put my hands out in front of me and grabbed onto the sofa to keep my breasts from making contact with it and heard Howl rustling around behind me. I knew what he was doing, that he was taking himself out of his pants, and gently pushed myself away from the sofa and turned to look over my right shoulder at him.

I wanted to be with him, but not like this! I reached back and tried to push him away while saying "No! Wait! Stop!", but he grabbed my arm/wrist and pinned it to the sofa, in front of me, and used his free hand to lift up the back of my dress and to pull my undergarments down. I tensed and started crying because I knew it was going to hurt because I was a virgin and wasn't prepared to be taken from behind - mentally or physically -, but I also knew there was nothing I could do to stop him. He was so scrawny and didn't look like he had any muscles whatsoever, but he was incredibly strong! I couldn't fight him.

I felt this intense, sharp pain down there and knew it was Howl entering me. My eyes widened and I screamed and just started crying frantically because the pain was so bad, but Howl just ignored it and kept pushing until he was fully inside of me. Again, I reached back and tried to push him away while also trying to "crawl" away from him while saying "no," but I was in so much pain, my voice was barely a hoarse whisper. Howl grabbed / pinned my wrists to the sofa and pressed his upper body against mine so that I couldn't get away and purred huskily in my ear "At the rate you're going, you'll never be ready. It's best we do this now so you get used to it. So hold still and be quiet."

He started thrusting and it was so excruciating! Yet, he clearly had no intention of stopping. His logic was the sooner we had sex, the sooner I would get used to having sex (having him inside of me and just in general), the sooner I would stop feeling pain and start feeling pleasure - the same as what he was feeling. He honestly believed this was the best course of action, so no matter how much I cried and protested, he was going to "help" me learn how to have pain-less sex.

Time passed and I felt his member become longer and bigger around inside of me. It was still incredibly painful with tiny twinges of pleasure and I think it was because at times, he would hit that special spot inside of me that made me feel pleasure. It was very minimal though, the pleasure I felt, and would only last for 2-3 seconds at a time. The next thing I realized he wasn't thrusting quite as fast as he had been in the beginning. He had slowed his thrusts significantly - which didn't really stop the pain -, and suddenly, I felt this stinging hot liquid inside of me. It kind of felt like he was peeing, but I knew he was actually cumming inside of me. It did but didn't feel good and also kind of weird/strange.

Once he'd finished, he let go of me and pulled out and stood behind me, panting heavily and smirking, content/satisfied. By now, I was worn out, my bottom was completely sore and throbbing, and I was crying and trembling because I was still in so much pain.

Howl noticed, but didn't seem to care or to be all that concerned about it and peeled me off the couch and helped me to stand. He held onto me and slowly walked me to the bathroom. I tried repeatedly to push him away from me and to walk to the bathroom on my own, not wanting anything to do with him, but he kept his body tight against mine (he was behind me) and held my wrists tight in his hands, refusing to let me go. He leaned down slightly and smirking happily, whispered in my ear, "I don't want you to fall. Also, you aren't going to run away from me - again." I had no choice but to let him help me to the bathroom.

We reached the bathroom and he took me inside and sat me down on the toilet. Only then did he let go of me and stepped away from me. He stood in the bathroom doorway and smirking proudly / happily / smugly, said "Go ahead and clean yourself up. I'll come back and get you in a few minutes and tuck you in bed." I glared at him with tears in my eyes cos I was so angry and tired and sore, I could hardly stand to touch myself down there to clean his cum off of me, but he just closed the door and waited patiently for me to finish in the bathroom.

I finished in the bathroom, but was so angry, all I could think about was getting even with him by forcing him to be with me against his will and in a way that would embarrass him and make him the laughing stock of the general populace. I wasn't quite sure how to go about doing that because I kept thinking, "I could 'force' him to be with me, but knowing Howl, he'd just enjoy every second of it. Damn him anyway!"

Idk how I managed to get out of the bathroom without Howl noticing, but I did, and started walking down this long, dimly lit hallway that had an orange-brown glow to it. The wall on my left had nothing but windows that faced a courtyard and there were these tables/chairs (like what you'd see in a fast food place) and there were people sitting in them. I saw one guy whom I knew worked in law enforcement and thought about telling him about what Howl had done to me, but then I was like "No, there's no way I can tell him what I've just been through. It's too embarrassing and because I willingly fooled around with Howl, I'm not sure if what he did was even rape or not."

I walked past the man, further up the hall, then saw that, instead of tables and chairs (booths), there was this huge mattress laying on the floor with two Asian guys laying on it in their underwear. The guy laying on bottom had this cute dark/navy blue briefs on and had his eyes tightly closed and looked just like Aden!!! The other guy was laying on his stomach between the first guy's legs and had pulled his briefs to the side and was pleasuring him with his tongue. The first guy, whose eyes were still tightly closed, groaned and turned his head to the side and I realized he wasn't Aden after all, but just looked like him from the side view.

Just then, two other guys showed up, also in their underwear, and joined the first two on the bed, and they started having a three/four-way and depending on the angle, the first guy sometimes looked like himself, but would also look like Aden. I knew Lizzie would want to see them, especially the guy that kind of resembled Aden, so I went to get a camera to take pictures to show her later, but the dream changed and I was talking to this tall, well built guy with long, straight pitch black hair and gold colored eyes and glasses. I was still holding the camera from before and was smiling and telling him that I wanted this girl (from some soap opera) to hook up with Aden, but I also wanted her to hook up with this other guy named Augustine and that I shipped her with both of them. I also confessed to him that I also kind of liked the idea of the three of them getting together and having a three-way, which the guy just kind of grinned and found amusing. He was like "Really? Ahaha!"

I didn't realize until AFTER that, that the name of the guy I'd been talking to was Augustine and that he played the part of "Augustine" in the soap opera that we'd just been talking about. I also realized / learned from him, that the guy who played the part of "Aden" in the same soap opera, his name was also Aden in real life. Also, they were actual brothers, just like their characters were in the show. The only difference is that in real life, they were both single. But in the show, their character's were in love with this girl/woman who was in love with both of them. I felt so embarrassed! And that's where the dream ended and I woke up.